esca, you don't need to say happy valentine's day to me. just...i don't know...bounce around a bit ^_~
i'm going home (ack. i still can't find a proper way to call it. former home?) tomorrow cause mom wants me to go to the polish film festival with her. at least i get to pick the movies - festival films tend to be depressing, and polish selections are always heavy on the holocaust, and i don't feel like dealing with anything heavy this weekend.
ok, happy valentine's day to everyone~!! ah, it's happy enough. i may not have love, but i have chocolate. that's a start.
Wednesday, February 13, 2002 12:41 a.m. o frabjous day~!! callooh~!! callay~!!
yay fishy~!! she came and took me out. to eat. and brought me chocolates in a heart-shaped box. i'm on the verge of stealing her from...*him*. kakakakakakakakakakaka~!!!
i will now look for some doctor to take me on in esca's vicinity, so i can get to live with her^___^ and now that it's a possibility, i am also waiting for something horrible to happen which will crush my hope and leave me bitter and disillusioned. it's already began with my advisor, who thinks it's a great idea but doesn't know if anyone there will take on a 1st year student. go dream-squasher~!! gooooo~!!!!!!!!!!
*sob* find someone~!!!
Monday, February 11, 2002 04:24 p.m. man, meta, it sounds like you're going through a terrible time. wish there was something i could do - i remember when you were all genki and it's so hard to think of you in such a crappy situation. i wish you lots of luck. *hug*
cardio started, and for some reason half of the objectives we made are renal. why does life hate me? also, test tomorrow. well, test-"thing" really, but still.
i guess i don't really have much to say this time. lots of small things happened but they're not important. i still have no summer plans because that guy i asked for guelph reference numbers won't email me back. maybe i'll arrange something where esca lives and make her take me in for a month, as revenge for inducting me into potter slash. she deserves pain for that.
Saturday, February 9, 2002 03:26 p.m. esca thinks i have a "proxy obsession for ppl who look like ppl who look like anime characters that you don't like but appear in the same anime where characters you like appear". this in relation to kiri-clone nurse.
i don't know...could i be that fucked up? probably...
my mom just left after bringing me chocolate cake, therefore i am happy. i will vegetate and eat cake today. unfortunately the olympics seem to pre-empt my chosen tv programs (i can't believe there'll be no ER for 2 weeks~!! 2 weeks~!!!!), so i'll have to find some other way to waste my precious time.
and hi to simone if you're reading this~!! was it fun getting drunk? hmmm...what a question. 'course it was ^_~
Thursday, February 7, 2002 04:47 p.m. blechhh...one more day and this useless week is over. today our amalgamated (amalgamated because most people from the 3 groups never showed, and i both envy and hate them) mega-group worked out the presentation we're doing tomorrow, so the work is done. oh, to be done with it, so i can return to cursing various organ systems...
was watching comedy channel last night.
comedy guy: they had to delay an execution for 55 min because they couldn't find a vein. what's that about? it's an execution - stab him with the needle~!!
me: ^O^ stab~!!
hmm. this site reviews weird asian soft drinks. it's hilarious~!! on pocari sweat: "are you an athlete who enjoys the taste of semen? we've found the sports drink for you~!" heh
Tuesday, February 5, 2002 11:04 p.m. who the fuck are your profs???
shelly came again^___^ tuesday evenings are becoming a tradition. i also can't believe how much we can eat when we're together - 2 medium pizzas, cheesiebread, cinnystix, and icecream. we're monsters. full, happy monsters.
trying and failing to find saiyuki ep 12 on morpheus. why oh why can't i find 12 T_T
and the anime club here's showing gravitation~!! true, at 2340 when all the kiddies presumably will go home, but i'm still impressed.
Monday, February 4, 2002 01:08 p.m. hn. if neocitran doesn't work for you, you obviously don't deserve to be cured. because of your lack of faith. which is disturbing in the face of the greatness that is neocitron.
all hail the greatness~!!!
this week is crappy. something called "integrative week" on evidence-based medicine, where we're supposed to learn to do the very thing we've been doing since school started. i know tons of people who'll be skipping this whole week. i've decided to go to the small group sessions out of guilt, but am skipping the morning sessions cause they're useless, and in the morning.
and there's snow. that's not really bad, but it's not good either. it's pretty to look at but it makes things cold. and wet. i think i've gotten used to the idea that there'll be no snow this winter, and i'm bitter at nature for throwing me a curveball.
or i'm bitter in general and taking it out on nature. i don't know.
mostly i'm bitter that my cute youkai isn't here, and that esca claims it doesn't exist. it does. and one day i'll find it and be happy, so nyah~!!
Saturday, February 2, 2002 12:09 a.m. >_<
figures. the one day i decide to go to my 7:45, they cancel school. i think this is a direct message from some great wise powers to never ever go to that class, and i shall obey them.
once again i had no heat. i seem to lose heat whenever it actually gets cold outside. there's heat now, but i fear the next cold spell. for i shall lose heat again, i know it.
they're out to get me. they all are...
Wednesday, January 30, 2002 11:39 p.m. wheee~!!!
i've neglected schoolwork entirely today. and had a great time of it^___^
went to the queer club's discussion meeting, and met some great people. one of them looks like kiri. i do not lie. i stared at her for 2 hrs across the table.
granted, i've only met kiri once, but she did make an impression. and *damn*~!!!
anyways, we adjourned to a coffeehouse and wasted another 2 hrs having fun, and then kiri-clone and her gf gave me a ride home. i know where she lives. kakakakaka...
shell was here yesterday, so that was great too. i gave her the wounded gojyo, and he's apparently all better. she'll bring him to visit next time...so they can fight over hakkai ^O^
and i have them all now~!!! here's sanzo in all his slutty glory, and goku looking all serious. and a group shot (heh) of the gang on any given day^___^
well, i'm all happy. the trauma of the evaluation has been erased, i've made non-med friends, and the weekend is coming...soon.
and a happy "hi" right back at you, stella~!!! hey, the stuff you post cracks me up. keep it comin', girl~!!!!
i'm making a cucumber salad. care to join me?
Wednesday, January 30, 2002 11:44 a.m. you worry me, dear.
yes you do.
Monday, January 28, 2002 12:48 a.m. i feel cold and crabby. no hot water, i felt filthy, so i was forced to take a freezing cold shower. well, it couldn't really be called a shower, but i'm clean now. clean, cold and crabby>_<
i wasted another weekend doing nothing. today i mostly watched the discovery channel. that's a waste of time...although a semi-educational one.
i don't want it to be monday. i'm still not up to seeing my group or evil tutor. i want a life. i want to be back in guelph.
Friday, January 25, 2002 08:29 p.m. did the cpc presentation. went reasonably well, except one gracious group member gave 15 minutes of our time to the group before cause theirs was too long, so we didn't get to finish.
so much for consulting with the group>*<
speaking of group, we had out mid-unit evals today. we blocked off 3 hrs to do them, knowing they usually take 1 - 1 1/2 hrs. did ours take 3 hrs?
no.
that'd be ridiculous.
it took 5.
FIVE HOURS~!!!!!!!!!!
FIVE BLOODY HOURS~!!!!!!!!!!!
oh, the unending horror of chronic verbal diarrhea. oh, the torment of unceasing repetition. oh, the sheer sitting in a room, having to dissect people you might never see again once this subunit is over.
i feel drained. i'm incredibly thankful that this is friday, cause i don't want to see any of them again for a *long* time. so what did i learn? i'm some sort of cypher, good logical info combined with a blank presence. thanks, i made that decision when evil-tutor came on board. don't get noticed, don't get in trouble. i don't need to suffer 5 hrs in a room to have the obvious pointed out to me.
i'm totally drained after this crap. i'm going to read or watch tv. in bed. with something hot to drink. and hope this'll put me to sleep soon cause i want this day to be over.
screw it, i think i'll take a pill. why leave anything to chance?
Wednesday, January 23, 2002 01:36 a.m. there there, esca. we all hate school. in fact, i just got an email from a friend in a master's program who's probably gonna leave it and look for a job somewhere.
but that's so much wasted time and effort, ne? and i'm so locked into this trajectory, it would take more effort to get out than to stay in.
went to see that doctor the army send me to today. waited a *long* time at reception, but once i actually got to see him it was great. he knows some of my preceptors, we chatted, he gave me all the referrals i wanted and even wrote me a prescription for my pills so i could take my sweet time about making the gyn appointment. he does some travel med and has army friends too, so he gave me a site addy to a place where the army sends docs to learn tropical med. he even gave me his personal phone number if i had any questions.
membership has its privileges, i guess^__^
shelly came today too (once again scuttling my schoolwork plans, but then i'd take any excuse), and i think i managed to get her truly hooked on saiyuki through the flashback eps. ah yes...those are truly the greatest.
this friday we have our mid-unit evals. this will be a horrid and bad day, where we shall (gently) confront our evil bitch of a tutor. i am not looking forward to this. i just want this unit to be over, then we'll be rid of her for good. it seems like a waste of energy to confront her.
Tuesday, January 22, 2002 03:03 a.m. yeah, school, whatever. did no work, have presentation on friday, meeting with group tomorrow (today) to put our research together. have no research.
doctor's appointment this morning. have no clue where the office is located. should probably find that out. soon.
but hey~!!! posted my first fic today~!!! so it's not like i'm *slacking* or anything, right??? and props to esca for helping me code~!! i suck, suck triple-suck~!!!
Monday, January 21, 2002 05:18 p.m. i have heat~!!! for possibly the first time this winter, my apartment is actually heated~!!
ok, that's my fault for never telling them about the problem, but still...they should have known. somehow. cause i'm special^^;;;
as a result of going drinking this sat, i managed to get no work done on *yet* another weekend. and now i'm swampedT_T
i feel all energized and virtuous because i got a membership at the y today. not like i did any actual exercise yet or anything - just signing up is enough for today~!! if not for the week^_~
Friday, January 18, 2002 03:38 p.m. chin iisou~!!!!!!!!!! you did it~!!! now...just...watercolor~!!!!!!
weekend. glorious, glorious weekend^___^
missed my 7:45 again (it shouldn't even be called "missed", it's not like i ever go), but went to the cpc and anat session...so i feel like i did work. and that therefore i may relax guiltlessly. i have no idea what to do. maybe pokemark will come to visit me. maybe not. maybe i'll just veg...
or *maybe* i'll go to esca's and nag her into doing watercolor? it's not like i have any plans...or life, for that matter.
Thursday, January 17, 2002 05:49 p.m. *phew* full day today. early tutorial for which i was, amazingly enough, well prepared. even though i was so out of it yesterday that i fell asleep as soon as i came home, and basically woke up in the extreme morning to prep.
we have issues with one of the tutors, who appears to be super-sensitive to anything we say but totally insensitive when she says anything about us. she has taken a dislike to two of our members and is very harsh and unfair to them. i seem to fly under her radar - she neither praises nor criticizes me.
also had clinical skills today, and the guy isn't really doing what he's supposed to. he lets us do patient history and then has us make differential diagnoses, which is all good and helpful, but we're not getting enough hands-on practice. i think that's a problem with mac - nobody is really "faculty", all the preceptors volunteer their time and are not necessarily good at teaching us what they're supposed to. if they even realize *what* they're supposed to do with us.
finally went to the queer club office on campus. seems like the same hang-out type office as guelph has, so i'll probably be spending time there between classes. instead of in the library, learning stuff^^;;;;;
Wednesday, January 16, 2002 03:47 p.m. new page layout. once again by esca, because i suck.
i *will* do schoolwork today. i really truly will. and i have those med application reviews to finish, but after asking around i thankfully realized that i'm not the only one who didn't hand them in yet.
the army's making me go see some doctor so i can be referred to an ob/gyn. nevermind that i already have one and have been going for annuals for 5 yrs. another waste of taxpayer money for the greater glory of the bureaucracy. go bureaucracy~!!!!!