Friday, May 31, 2002 03:31 p.m. took babies outside for the 1st time. they don't like their harnesses; actually chibiko more so than kurara. kurara kinda tolerates hers, while chibi spends the whole time slithering on her belly on the grass trying to get hers off. got pics back from anime north...lots and lots of people i don't recognize anymore (if i ever did at all -_-;;;), but at least there's also plenty of me. ME~!!!! oh...and you too, esca. and him. and you&him... Monday, May 20, 2002 10:58 p.m. studying. studying for a kind of test which i shouldn't study for. stupid kind of test. stupid school. stupid life. stupid ferrets spilled water all over my bed. stupid bed. also stupid hotmail. i'm sure they've dumped their junkmail filters to force people to buy their paid services. they worked fine until the paid option arrived, and then - whoosh. junk influx. meta~!! write more of korea~!!! i wanna live vicariously through you, since you didn't take me along *sob sob* btw, was that "cooking" show nanta? just curious. and of course, happy b-day to esca. even though i'm a day late - as a certain bf kindly reminded me. you're now well on your way to mid-life and it's well-documented dumping-your-mate-for-someone-half-your-age syndrome. kakakakakakakakakakakaka... Wednesday, May 15, 2002 11:12 p.m. been feeling crappy since this week began. kinda nauseated on mon, tired yesterday, and today the mother of all headaches...actually had to get off phone with esca because couldn't hold on to receiver. *sigh* falling apart... 2 tylenol didn't really help, so took a bath. haven't taken a bath in...i don't know. many years. and my tub is too small. but it was so very relaxing and hot. kept my ears underwater to hear the tap; the deeper i went the more bass-like the sound got. pleasantly hypnotic - could definitely fall asleep like this, if annoying choking could be ignored. headache still there, but markedly fainter. don't know what the fuck's wrong with me. Friday, May 10, 2002 02:53 p.m. i asked esca what i should blog about. she said, blog about your birthday and how old you're getting...wait...that's *my* birthday~!!! poor esca. senile so young. still at home. going to esca's today. her bus schedule is worse than mine, so i am still here. awaiting bus. eating food. fooooood...^O^ my bro won some robot stuff and was on the news. the real news. i am impressed. sadly, my congratulations led him to try and explain robots to me, which led me to tune him out...yet again. our interactions are very predictable. still here. will find some other way to kill time... Tuesday, May 7, 2002 12:08 a.m. driving class again today. wasn't paying any attention to where i was going - needed to concentrace on keeping off the curb. suddenly found myself in real traffic. with...traffic lights. and cars. cars behind me, wanting to pass. hey, shouldn't the instructor be able to tell i'm *nowhere* ready for this? well, what do you know. meta's in korea. and i'm in canada. she's over there. i'm over here. there. here. what happened??? waaaaaahhhhhhhhhh~!!!!!!!!!!! Sunday, May 5, 2002 12:58 a.m. have been rewatching cats because am in love with the red kitty wearing spiky collar, the gorgeously sexy bombalurina. and here's more sexy kitty. *sigh* can that be considered progress? no? didn't think so... gave ferrets bath today. found out holding wet, shampoo-slick ferret trying desperately to get away is difficult. who knew. also, my ferret book keeps striking out. instead of being hyper after the bath like it said they'd be, both went almost immediately to sleep, looking supremely annoyed with me. kurara chewed through my shirt, just in case i didn't get the point. meta's going to korea. i wanna go to korea too, heat notwithstanding. i can live without a/c~!! i'll whine and bitch, but i'll live~!! take me with you~!! *eheh* kidding...have great fun ^__^ and if you like the last herald-mage, you should read the mage winds trilogy. wait 'til you meet firesong ^_~ dammit, take me with you~!!!!!! Wednesday, May 1, 2002 04:08 p.m. pictures~!!! click here to see my babies ^__^ kurara's the darker one closer to the camera, and chibiko's the one facing away. awwww... i bought ferretone for them, but discovered that putting it on my fingers makes kurara into a vicious biter. however, putting it on the heterofore unused superexpensive chewing toys seems to have a good effect. also precious inu pics~!! this one's of inu in the box (yes, shell made a box. with a trading card in it). and here is inu yasha in the flesh (plastic...whatever...), in a great from-the-top picture. thank you, shell~!!! considered putting him on ebay and seeing what i could get, for fun ^_~ Friday, April 26, 2002 04:29 p.m. whee~!!! i drove~!! for the 1st time in my life (yes, i'm pathetic). but i did it, and it was not hard. on nearly deserted street -_-;;; shell came yesterday bearing gifts. she made me an inu doll~!!! yaaaay~!!! it's incredibly detailed...down to his claws. the necklace is of actual stones, and he can sit crosslegged~!! i'm in awe of shell. i can't imagine the time this took to make. will post pic soon. we also took pics of my babies, so these i will also post...soon. tried to find a vet for them today. so many vets don't take ferrets. and the ones that do are far from where i live T_T chibiko has a resp infection, so i want to take her in maybe monday. hopefully it'll resolve itself before then. going home tomorrow. will try to convince mom to let me practice driving. am not foreseeing much success... Thursday, April 25, 2002 04:34 p.m. 24 today. 24 seems old. older than 23...older than 25. it's just an old-seeming number. or i'm disturbed. but shell comes soon. all will be well ^__^ she will bring camera to take pics of my babies. which have developed an annoying habit of shitting in the corner opposite the litterbox. when i move the box, they switch corners >_< gave cake to my tutorial group. precious cake mom makes only once a year. is my group deserving? actually i only gave it to them cause i'm going home this weekend and there's no way i could finish it all, even with shell's help. but i'd have given it a good try. Tuesday, April 23, 2002 09:06 p.m. uuuuuaaaaaaaahhhhh...uuuuaaaaaahhhhhhh... O Mighty Menstruation Goddess, let esca have her period~!!! uuuaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh...uuuuuaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh... Monday, April 22, 2002 09:01 p.m. ^__^ kurara went inside my shirt and fell asleep. i lay there for 20 min so she wouldn't wake up, but then chibiko joined her and bit me. *sigh* esca is disgusted by my cooing about my babies. she thinks i'm developing "maternal instincts" and will end up wanting human children any day now. but see, that's just my point. if you can get those feelings from cute ferrets which you can lock up in a cage if they annoy you too much, why bother with humans? you can't lock those in a cage. well, not without a great fuss. Saturday, April 20, 2002 06:36 p.m. ooo...chibiko bit me hard enough to draw blood. damned teething stage -_-;;; kurara bites too, but her teeth are still too pathetic to cause pain. i'm more distracted by her claws. i'm pretty sure chibiko can hear. she startles at loud sounds. well, she startles at *something*. may be sound. i am addicted to giant oranges from the farmer's market. they are almost $1 per orange. i am so weak...T_T Thursday, April 18, 2002 11:01 p.m. chibiko and kurara are here~!!! they're *sooo* cute. and both female - the store had a more recent shipment that had a beautiful pale cinnamon female. she's still such a baby - more than chibiko, who's from a previous shipment. she tries to follow chibiko around, but can't keep up yet ^___^ chibi's a biter. bit my fingers, my toes...my ass. hopefully she'll train out of it soon. they're both still adjusting to my place, anyways. awww...poor chibi's likely deaf. apparently albinos are, and all others are 50-50. the only sure hearing ferrets are sables, the wildtype. so kurara might be deaf too, but they compensate with sight and smell. and do a bloody good job, judging by chibi ^__^ Wednesday, April 17, 2002 05:00 p.m. esca was here and she brought her boy. now gone. i went through my apartment, finding disconcerting signs of life. other than my own. *sigh* this is what happens when you live alone too long. and now she and her boy are gone and everything is back the way it was, except i miss them. i've worked myself into my happy little isolation, and now they've shocked me out of it. damn you, esca~!!! but...it's not like they could stay much longer in my...room...eheh -_-;;; like boy. boy nice. and hairless...wait...hate boy~!! why does he get to be hairless? so unfair T_T still...boy nice. gave me beautiful watercolor painting which demonstrates proper use of masking. which i can't do. because i suck. but who cares about sucking - esca gave me a chin iisou~!!!!! chin iisou~!!! *swooooooooooooon* thankyouthankyouthankyou *^__^* i knew my whining would bear fruit eventually~!!! elective continuing well. last week got to see c-section. baby was breach, and they pulled out the legs first, then the arms, but the head was stuck. and they were trying to get it out, while its little fists were waving around in the air ^__^ all ended well. so cute. ferrets~!!! ferrets come tomorrow~!! finally...after nearly 4 months of waiting for the cinnamon one. it's a male, but i can't wait any longer for a female, and it's apparently not a problem if they're raised together. can't wait ^_____^ Monday, April 8, 2002 05:16 p.m. busy these days. my free day has been taken over by wiggly uteruses, which is all well and good but it leaves me with barely any prep time for tutorials. was in anat lab today. where the spinal cord ends nerves still continue, looking like a horse's tail. that's what they're called, cauda equina. horse tail. freaky to see, really. esca's evil school is making me take blood tests to even apply for an elective there. tests i didn't need to attend my own school. does that mean my school is less careful? or is hers just anal? i prefer to think it's the latter. want to make rice. and eat it with little korean fish strings. but feel guilty about letting food mom make languish in freezer. conclusion? i obviously need more stuff to feel guilty about. Wednesday, April 3, 2002 11:15 p.m. cervix~!!!! had my first day of ob/gyn elective. the doctor let me do a pap and bimanual pelvic exams. on some *very* patient (eheh...) patients. ok, so i wasn't really sure what i was doing...still...he's a great teacher. the uterus is wiggly~!!! it's round and wiggly~!! moderation in all things, my pet, including moderation. Monday, March 25, 2002 11:59 p.m. aahhh...we managed to shift our schedules around to make a 4-day weekend. only 3 more days to freedom... if that ob/gyn takes me on for an elective, i will soon be able to spend my wednesdays staring into cervixes. thrilling. simply thrilling. and on a&e tonight: jezebel rocked. the ancient israelites shot themselves in the foot when they murdered her, and deservedly got conquered. see, men can't rule effectively. i love educational programs about morons in power. Thursday, March 21, 2002 02:09 p.m. good tutor. happy group which is *not* into endless talking and uber-politeness. great clinical skills preceptor. with access to cancer patients. which is good, cause they stay in hospital for long and are kinda used to being examined. however, am in limbo over electives. all those doctors are supposed to get back to me...someday. i want instant gratification, but i'm stuck behind an impenetrable wall of secretaries. Monday, March 18, 2002 04:32 p.m. actually, coanteen's not so much dismayed as stunned at the speed at which you moved here ^_~ i really have to pick up my own pace. which...seems nonexistent right now.but hey - i just got a pulsating showerhead. that's just as good, right? riiiight??? my precious shell has revamped her website. it now includes info about shows she'll be at and a bunch of new jewelry. met new tutor. contrary to expectations, she seems nice and reasonable. and she brought us chocolates. i will have less stress in life if i quit negatively prejudging people. really i will -_-;;; Thursday, March 14, 2002 03:43 p.m. wooo~!! i have contacts~!! minor troubles focusing on screen...but then again i only had them in for half an hour. doctor had to paralyze my eyes to get them in at first. heh. my eyes *know* what doesn't belong in them. go, uncontrolled blink reflex~!! i love my bunny ^_^ with its bunny ears^__^ feel developing attachments to bunnies and the color purple. sick, twisted attachments... way to go, esca. i send you helpful info and you still ditch me for the soon-to-be-deceased one. word of this betrayal shall spread~!! spread like bloody diarrhea~!!! Monday, March 11, 2002 11:46 p.m. i am now completely hysterical...laughing...crying in relief...^O^ my tutorial group just finished final unit eval...it took...from 4 to 11:30pm...7~!! and~!! a~!! half~!!! HOURS~!!!!! HOURS~!!!!!! these people...they can't...SHUT THE *FUCK* UP~!!!!! FUUUUUUUUUUUCKKKKKK~!!!!!!!!!!!! T_T ^O^ T_T ^O^ maybe i could kill them all... must...kill...all... when the last person was talking and freedom seemed so very near and she just would. not. stop. talking~!! i think a kind of group hysteria came over us. and suddenly one of the tutors (!) burst out laughing. and we followed. and then the person evaluating apologized for being long-winded. and then...she. kept. talking. *kept* *talking*. haaaaaaateeeeeeeeee~!!!!! kiiiiiilllllllllllllll~!!! i need drugs. drugs to make me sleep and kill. kill. Sunday, March 10, 2002 03:35 p.m. was awakened around 3am by the fire alarm. responding to reflexes honed by 4 yrs of life in rez, i threw on a coat and rushed downstairs - only to find maybe 12 people around the lobby. out of a 33-story building. apparently the rest of the residents prefer to choke on smoke and burn in flames. anyways, false alarm, of course. their behavior disturbing nonetheless... esca has abandoned me for some *boy* she used to worship. hey, i was going to abandon my group on friday to meet with you~!! now i have nothing to look forward to...except vibrators...^___^ Friday, March 8, 2002 01:19 a.m. whee~!! shell came back after 2-week hiatus (damn you, b/f with your crummy reading week, witholding my precious shell from me)~!!! great joyousness with endless sushi and homemade lassis...and er. always with the er. although...there wasn't much er on er. shout out to simone - hey, guys never know what they want. especially younger ones. *tell* him what he wants (heee ^_~). should sleep. was gonna take a nap today but ended up having to learn about infectious endocarditis instead. must present in the morning. skipping early class, anyways. Wednesday, March 6, 2002 02:10 a.m. esca, there's nothing wrong with your profession choice~!! there's just something wrong with your evil preceptors. it *will* get better... hell, it *has* to. i'm drunk. post-osce drunkfest with entire class. man, were the bartenders happy. i did ok, and i found this way more useful that the "reasoning ex" (still bitter...so bitter). a couple of really moronic mistakes but good overall. and the evaluaters were mostly good, but there was this one asshole...*shudder* he kept shaking his head and rolling his eyes and interrupting. i finally just told him i didn't know what he wanted and stopped the exam. damned asshole on a power trip. anyways, still happy experience. and even happier drunkfest ^___^ Monday, March 4, 2002 06:35 p.m. it suuuuuuuuuckeeeeeeeeeeed~!!!!!!!!!!!! wow. reasoning exercise my ass. there was no time to reason. i don't think there was really time to read and physically write answers, never mind reason. this is not a real school...this is not a real test...there are no real marks...none of this is real...i think i'll get drunk... *nodnodnod* get drunk. Sunday, March 3, 2002 12:46 a.m. test mon. that's...tomorrow, really. not studying enough. wasting time. look, i'm wasting time *right* *now*. oh god... Thursday, February 28, 2002 11:15 p.m. yeah~!! new er~!! er rocks~!!! we had a lecture on cardiac arrhythmias today. basically where the heart rhythm goes all wonky. the presenter was talking about drugs to treat that. presenter - many patients hate this drug. if they've had it before, they'll ask you to give them something else, because this one makes them feel very strange and uncomfortable. it stops their heart, so that may be part of the reason... ^O^ Wednesday, February 27, 2002 04:00 a.m. my pupils are too big~!! if i have laser surgery, i will get glare~!!! damn you, freakishly huge pupils~!!! Sunday, February 24, 2002 06:08 p.m. i too hear that honking outside my window. i heard in when we beat belarus too. and now the tv news blabs about the "1st gold medal in hockey in 50 yrs". yay~!!! let's all join hands across the country in pissing on the canadian women's victory~!! anybody hear honks and screams when they won? i know i didn't. i am proud of canada and any medals we win in the olympics, but please. the games are supposed to be for amateur athletes, not overpaid nhl'ers. in my opinion they have no place in the olympics, and i will not celebrate a medal in a fake event. Saturday, February 23, 2002 09:20 p.m. hi again, meta. i'm glad the olympics made you feel better. i too was all for the canadian pair, and the double medal ceremony was so nice to see (except for pelletier not singing the national anthem, lousy separatist that he is). but did you see the gala performance? man, the russians really shone there. they totally deserve their gold, too. well, it's nearly over, and i can go back to my beloved er. i feel like i should say something to you, but what? ehhh...you don't deserve it anyways, kidney-loving one. Wednesday, February 20, 2002 01:33 p.m. was watching discovery channel. they were showing some ancient tomb that was designed to mirror the temple to the earth goddess above it, and took hundreds of years to build. they brought in an architect to see it and asked him how long it would take us to construct it today, with all our technology. his answer : today, we don't have the spirit to build something like that. that's sad. Tuesday, February 19, 2002 11:17 p.m. i talked to esca's school today, and they send me an application for a summer elective there. it is intimidating. it keeps referring to clerks and clinical experience and 12-week periods and stuff. plus it costs money to apply. why do you go to such a mean school? went with shell to indian restaurant in town. same place my unit 1 group made plans to go to 3 times. we never went. my unit 1 group sucked. i spend a lot of the weekend calling pet stores in a fruitless effort to find a female cinnamon ferret. pet stores suck. in retaliation i made my hair red. do i suck? probably. i should study, but i'll just go to bed and read a horror novel about evil ob/gyns. and eat grapes. grapes are good ^__^ Friday, February 15, 2002 03:47 p.m. chin iisou~!!!! *swoon* esca, i love you and will not make sauce out of you. i promise~!!! 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