Should eat something. Yeah...
Meta is going to Korea. Doujinshi doujinshi doujinshi. 0_0
Bf and I have become rabbits. Nice menstration goddess answer prayers and am not pregnant!! Kyahahahahahaha.
Going insane...
Tuesday, April 23, 2002 08:20 p.m.
Chicken was on sale today. So bought more chicken. Been eating chicken all week. ^___^ After reading Coanteen's blog, bought myself some oranges too. Eating them right now... Nice sweet oranges.. yum.
Reading Nahmool's blog, found out that Hoonie's 2nd album came out. Been completely out of touch with K-pop these days. Korean CD's completely unavailable where I live. T_T Can't exactly go to where parents live either... -_-;;;;;; It was quite interesting when Dad threw my luggage onto the lawn and told me to never come back. Maybe I'll try to download some mp3's....
Bought myself a new binder and organized all the loose sheets of paper for my research project. Makes me feel like I've actually done work... -_-;;;;; Hope very much that Coanteen will come and live with me during her elective. Also hope that I'm not pregnant. --;;; Likelihood of being prenant very low. Pray to the Menstration Goddess... Please let me have my period....
Friday, April 19, 2002 12:39 p.m.
Have not written in 10 days. Much has happened. Exams have come and gone. Got thrown out by father yet again..=_=;; This is getting old. Visited Coanteen. She has... ferrets. What does one ferret plus one ferret equal? A human being!! Or so that is the attitude that Coanteen has. Gotta go and make an appointment today. Me so lazy....
Tuesday, April 9, 2002 01:38 p.m.
Guess this is about the right time to find a dark corner to crawl into and never come out again...
Saturday, April 6, 2002 10:28 a.m.
Drank too much coffee. Can feel my heart beating when I'm sitting quietly... T_T Feeling slightly nauseated. Will go to library to study today as staying home does not do me much good.
Coanteen is bonding with her cervixes. She claims that mine is wiggly as well (or was it the uterus?). I refuse to believe her. Must keep her away from my cervix and other attached parts. T_T Gotta go and get a pap smear done too. *shudder* Decided not to go on a long term birth control since will probably be having kids in a couple of years.. -_-;;;
Wednesday, April 3, 2002 11:15 a.m.
Made myself a schedule... Mmmmm... CD player died. T_T So went out and got some used tapes.. about 3 dollars each... Need study music...
Meta watched Fruits Basket. Recent few eps were very touching. Made me cry.... Mmmm... Oi.. Meta.. if you're reading this, use the re-download thingie. Go to account info, download report. You can re-download the 5 most recent files without having to pay twice for the same eps... Although, I guess it doesn't matter too much. Eh.. one more gig. Only a few dollars, anyway....
Drinking coffee now... trying to avoid studying for as long as possible. The inevitable doom that is studying... Feel better about it now though. Cleaned apt and now I can actually think without all the clutter... Also swept floor. Totally amazed at how much hair falls out in few days... T_T Wonder if I'm going bald....
Tuesday, April 2, 2002 08:24 a.m.
Start panicking!!!!
Monday, April 1, 2002 04:51 a.m.
Not blogging much these days. Hmmm... I guess things will pick up when the exams are over.
Bf came over the weekend and cooked me 'kimchi jjigae', dumplings, pasta and some stir fried potatoes. The way to my heart is through my stomach. I am always more agreeable when I am well fed. ^^;;;;; I have agreed to bear his child. ^^;;;; We'll have some really weird kids and make Coanteen change their dipers. Kakakakakaka.
Coanteen thinks he'll make a cute uke and is trying to auction off his ass. Must stop her.... She offered me a bit of the profit but I have a feeling I'll be bidding for his ass anyway..-_-;;; No reason to share what is already mine, ehehehehe.
His Pooh bear is becoming very close to the stuffed rabbit Coanteen gave me a couple of years ago..to commemorate my vivisection of rabbits. --;;; He was a bit freaked about that...being a complete tree-hugger. But at least we drugged the rabbits into sleep before cutting them open... Now the stuffed rabbit has exchanged her red ribbon for Pooh's scarf (I have a feeling it's not even really Pooh's... Pooh must have stolen that scarf off one of his many stuffed animals). Sometimes, we make them hump each other..-_-;;;;
Friday, March 29, 2002 12:47 a.m.
Slept for the past 18 hours. -_-;;; Was *supposed* to do work. Bf comes in 12 hours or so.
Tuesday, March 26, 2002 02:36 p.m.
Erg. Coanteen. You have it good. T_T
Got eval for clin skills today. Had a couple of borderline passes. But passed generally. Tutors kept taking marks off for lack of confidence..-_-;;; Damn. Should have failed them when I was evaluating them.
Cold and snowing. Want to sleep but have not finished the daily quota of studying. T_T
Sunday, March 24, 2002 05:36 p.m.
Bf just left. Making poutine now.
Friday, March 22, 2002 03:53 a.m.
It is almost 4 in the morning.. Taking a break. Can't seem to get past the last few lectures of the kidney. Need to finish...and clean the apt. And take out garbage.. before leaving for class in 4 hours. Boyfriend coming over at lunch. Told him I'd have the kidneys done. T_T I really don't see it happening... T_T Maybe I'll skip the cancer lecture...
Need to set up electives too. Will worry about that later...
Tuesday, March 19, 2002 04:54 p.m.
Clin skills feedback. Of course, neither of the scary tutors bothered to tell me anything. But the other tutor came to me and said that he reviewed it with one of the other tutors and thought it was good. Which made me very very relieved...
Monday, March 18, 2002 04:03 p.m.
Much to Coanteen's dismay, I've managed to get myself a boyfriend in the past few days. He's a couple of years older than me and we used to go to the same highschool. It seems kinda strange being together after not seeing him for seven years. -_-;;; The whole weekend had this weird surreal quality to it. I think Meta probably knows him too. -_-;;
Wednesday, March 13, 2002 06:02 p.m.
Did a little Hikaru no Go doujinshi. The first bit of words are straight out of the anime. ^^;; Of course... Akira was talking about..Go.. in the anime. ^^;;;;;;;;; Gotta send Hikaru no Go anime to Coanteen soon too. Keep forgetting...
Wednesday, March 13, 2002 04:37 p.m.
The Evil Deed is done and the Time of Doom has passed. -_-;; I feel like I've crawled out from underneath a 10 tonne rock. Thanx to Coanteen. The link you sent me of the Phys Exam vids helped a lot. The coordinator of the section reassured me not to worry...that she definitely does not think I'm failing. Of course, it'll be my tutors evaluating me and not her... but still, it was really nice to hear her tell me to relax and enjoy my holidays.
This morning, I was so nervous, I couldn't sit still...so I even put on makeup. -_-;; I think that's the first time I put on make up on myself... Just some concealer, lipstick and a bit of mascara. Didn't bother with eyeliner or eyeshadow or anything like that. Need more practice for those....
Wednesday, March 13, 2002 02:46 a.m.
In an attempt to stay awake - God only knows why since it wasn't productive at all - I have drank two cups of coffee and about 6 cups of tea. The trips to the bathroom to pee have become extremely annoying. As well, the Time of Doom draws near. -_-;; Well. It's only an Hour of Doom. Why have I been stressing over it for the past five days? Such a complete waste of time....
Head feels... very heavy. Think I have some strange salt inbalance in my head.
Monday, March 11, 2002 02:03 a.m.
Ugh. Studying goes slow.
Sunday, March 10, 2002 01:00 p.m.
Studying... Why do the first bit of notes we got correspond to the last two chapters in our textbook? =_= Just goes to show how illogical and unorganized our course is...
Sunday, March 10, 2002 12:57 p.m.
Did not get any studying done last night. Instead, talked about vibrators over icq with Coanteen. -_-;;;; And talked for hours with a pretty boy I used to worship in highschool. And talked for hours with sis. Today, have to study like hell. So why is my computer on?
Friday, March 8, 2002 05:14 p.m.
Around lunch, got a phone call. Was parents, right outside my door. They obviously didn't think they should tell me if they're visiting. I told them that they should have..and Dad gave me a long lecture on how he is my father and thus does not need to tell me beforehand. Got angry and cried. Tutor called when I was crying. Talked to him for a little while...not as much as I should have, probably. But was too upset. Exhausted now.
Friday, March 8, 2002 10:35 a.m.
Got up really early. But instead of going to school, downloaded some icq and winamp skins...and made myself some MSN skins.
Coanteen. I will not be able to go to Toronto this week. Parents say to stay here and study. They're very good at changing plans without consulting me. Also said they're coming over today and were contemplating coming over without even telling me. Got mad at them. It irritates me when they decide to come over and give me less than 24 hour notice. I told them not to come. And they told me that they'll just come for a little while. Told them not to come. And they said they'll come and not to worry. Told them not to come. They said they already packed. Got really mad at them. Told them not to come and hung up. I shall see you in April, dear. After the exams.
Thursday, March 7, 2002 07:49 a.m.
Eating rice for breakfast with some left-over curry I made few days ago. Chicken in it tastes sour. Hope I'm not getting Salmonella or something... Have not washed dishes for a couple of days. Down to eating with a teaspoon. Very sad...
Tutor emailed back. Vague. Nothing to indicate if I'm doing really bad or not. Said that he'll give me pointers for one of the phys. exams if I remind him the next time I see him. That's in another two weeks and our last session. Have a feeling he doesn't really want to put in any effort/time into this. -_-;; Still unable to get in touch with the other tutor. Left him a message to call....
Tried to study. Slept instead. Probably anemia related to menstration. Sleeping too much in the last few days... Woke up twice because sis called. Mumbled something. Went back to sleep... She's being nice these days. Still bitter. But able to not show it. Feel petty hanging onto bitterness when everyone else seems to think it's such past history.
Evil boy icq'ed again. Asked how I was (I think) in Spanish. Told him to go away. -_-; He went away saying he misses being my friend. Damn him. His brain can't possibly be so dense. I must have told him off dozens of times. Maybe he had severe heavy metal toxicities in his brain. That'd explain the denseness. He tried to talk to me in class too. I was reading some funny article about sizes of leeks at the time with some other friends... Probably was encouraged because I was smiling and being civil.
Tuesday, March 5, 2002 03:25 p.m.
Hm. Today's session again made me feel like a total idiot. I really can't do this.... Really...think I'm in the wrong profession. Wish I could just go home and escape like Meta.. Hate this life.
Tuesday, March 5, 2002 08:33 a.m.
I'm at home, eating microwavable dinner instead of going to school. Skipping again. *sigh~* But today, I hate both the morning and the afternoon classes. Going to both will be a little too much, I think... Or so I'd like to tell myself.
Monday, March 4, 2002 04:33 a.m.
Waste time. Waste even more time. Waste.......
Slept 17 hours on Saturday. And 15 hours on Sunday. Must do workkk....
Saturday, March 2, 2002 02:13 a.m.
Parents officially retired today.
Friday, March 1, 2002 04:30 p.m.
Had another talk with the vice dean about problems with parents. Met a guy from my class coming out of his office when I went in. Met a girl from my class coming to his office when I left. Kinda embarressed. -_-;; I cried a bit. Probably looked a bit of a mess. Not as much as the last time though (fortunately did not see anyone I know that time...). Totally exhausted now.
The azaleas are in full bloom. Last time this year, I gave some clippings from my azaleas pot to the evil boy. We ate them together. Garlish pink flowers. Was it two years ago that I wrote about them in my Jekki fanfic? Called "jindalae" in Korean... Life does change, even when I feel like it's completely stagnant. It seems like time flies but apparantly not without leaving some imprints...