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I am sooo tired.... and sooo hungry... I think I ate one sandwich since 6 pm two days ago... T_T I should really eat breakfast before going to work, especially if i'm gonna be on call. After all, they only give you the time to eat one meal a day... There's usually not even enough time to drink water or go to the bathroom... Got to do a lot of suturing... a lot of cauterizing... a lot of directing the camera at laparascopy. Got to do my first complete procedure by myself - excision of genital wart. Yum. My supervisor dared to imply he would like me to come to his clinic in the afternoon. But I didn't go. I'll settle for 30 hours at the hospital, not 36. -_- Especially considering I was on my feet the whole time except the few hours I got to sleep. Feeling extra whiney today. Whine~~~~! First to Nahmmy. Of course you can put my fics up. ^^ I seem to be unable to write these days and I haven't kept up with how jekki is doing...but I might write more sometime. I wanted to correct some of the fics I already wrote.. I guess I'll do that later too. (Procrastination is great.) Surgery rotation next. I am terrified. To think that at one point, I wanted to be a surgeon. Mostly, I'm stressed over the fact that I have no idea where to go on Monday morning. The person who is in charge of our schedule is on holidays so I can't call her either. T_T Otherwise, I'm sitting here, eating the chicken that bfie made, eating the fruit salade that bfie made. Being on holidays is great. I believe I've been neglecting my blog horribly. Went to see Coanteen about a week ago. I think I should have rubbed it in more that I'm on vacation while she's *working*. She gave me stomach ulcer and dysentery. Really. What a good friend she is and how I love her for it. ^^ (they're cute stuffed bacteria shaped things..) Went camping last weekend. The expensive expensive bikini did not help me float. I guess I should have expected that. Bfie tried to teach me to swim... I can now tread water for... 2 seconds before I sink to the bottom. Of course, due to boyancy from the water, even if I don't do anything, it still takes me 2 seconds to sink to the bottom. -_- However, I shall still call it progress. We managed to get 2 mosquito bites during the whole camping trip due to the wonderfulness that is Deet. And we came home, fell asleep with the window open, and now have a dozen mosquito bites each. We suck. Made a list of things I must do during holidays. There's quite a lot. I wonderi if I'll actually get to do all of them. Why the hell didn't I do some of it the past two weeks? Must email Nahmool too... My computer's not connected to my bfie's computer (which has internet)...so as soon as I figure out how to transfer data from one to the other (as his comp doesn't have a floppy drive), I'll email the stuff. Can't believe the first week of holidays is almost over already. Have been doing absolutely nothing. -_-;;;; but get to see Coanteen this weekend. Yay!!!!!! Can't believe it's actually the vacation. I will not write about the end of rotation test I had today for it will make me super superstitious. Just sitting at home, waiting for my bfie to come and boink me like mad. Kakakaka!!! In complete love-love mode with the bfie. He bought me a super expensive bikini so we have to go to a beach. All happy happy, especially now that the test is over and I can breathe for the next few weeks. (when i'm not studying for the next surgery rotation or doing my research project, that is...). Parents have apparantly gone away on a trip after complete disgust over my sister's and my love lives. Sis got proposed to which apparantly is not what my parents wanted. Not anymore now that their friends with a doctor son wanted either me or my sister (they didn't care which) to be their daughter-in-law. *snort* Well.. too bad. My sister already has a pretty pretty diamond ring on her finger. kakaka. Sis is no longer against my marriage to bfie now that *her* marriage is frowned upon by parents. Have not talked to dad in 3 months. Have not talked to mom in a week. She's quite depressed, I think. Keeps saying things like her life up to this point is worthless. I worry for my mother but not enough to do what she wants. ^___^ Anaesthesia was fun. I'm almost sad that it's already over. Had a big male patient today who almost fainted when I put in his IV even though I did it nicely (no blood or anything....). Got to laugh at him a little. ^____^ Still waiting for bfie...^_____^ Life goes on. I can now put in IV lines. The exam is over. After two weeks of not blogging in fear that it'll jinx me. My superstitious paranoia is getting worse every year. Some of the questions were very strange...but at least, I was able to answer all of it. Nahmool seems depressed again. I suppose it's not an uncommon occurance... but l just like it so much when she's not *quite* so depressed - when she's just cynical and funny. -_- Selfish of me to wish just a certain amount of angst in someone else's life so I could read interesting blogs, I know. Casual sex never seems to work out - I actually read that in a women's magazine in an article written by a psychologist. Apparantly most of us are biologically unable to have casual sex because we evolved to associate sex with long term commitments. I hate women's magazines. -_- And besides, "slut" is so... in the eye of the beholder. Some people may think Nahmool is a slut. Other probably wouldn't. I can't say because I don't know how many people Nahmool slept with... -_-;;; I suppose I might think she's a slut if she's had unprotected sex with more than 30 people in her life. Not that being a slut is such a bad thing... But what I think doesn't really matter - it's not like I'm trying to recruit Nahmool for a nunnary. -_- I can hear one of my patients in labour chanting to me: "Mind over matter, mind over matter, mind over matter..." The reality is what you believe it to be. It seems like Nahmool feels slutty at the moment...and that's unfortunate because then that would make Nahmool a slut - in her mind and thus in her reality. May she soon change her mind. Haven't written in a while - but now I can finally write in my blog for my horrid days of obstetrics are over. I am no longer on call one in three days. *sigh~~~* Did not make it to anime con...and had a relatively crappy birthday...and now I am truly truly old and decrepid and spending all my time looking up peoples' vaginas...but I suppose I feel relatively content. Won in a coin toss (against TV boy) and was spared from gynecology oncology..so I don't see too many people with ulcerating/rotting masses down *there* at least. Ah... bought some nice functional cheap bras from Winners. Maybe will go buy some used clothing for the summers at Phase 2... Spent 170 dollar upgrading my fuck site. Never thought I'd see the day when I actually exceed the bandwidth and wish less people will visit my site...but here it is. Now have three times as much bandwidth. Should last me for a while.... On call right now. Very bored. Hardly anyone here. Also on call on Monday despite it being a national holiday. Very bad. Bfie and his parents are coming for a visit tomorrow...on my post-call-before-on-call day. Of all the bad timing...-_-;;; Well.. It's ok. At least it's not busy. Missing anime con and my birthday celebration this weekend due to sucky on call schedule. Cancer clinic today. Life is tragic and hilarious at the cancer clinic. Had an 11 year old boy who was completely healthy and then got cancer and got paralysed in two days. Going to die fairly soon. Had another patient. An 18 year old boy. -_-;; When I asked him where his tumour was, he replied: "on my dick". -_-;;;;;;; Well... He'll live. Good to know that Nahmool's not gonna have probs with the boy. Too bad that I'm not around Nahmool to threaten boys that I'm gonna gut them with rusty mellonballer if they're bad...like Meta doest for me. Well.. I guess that's not really my style anyway. Maybe I can threaten them that I'll send them some E. coli. Diarrhea... Yum~!!! Message to Nahmool. Well... a friendly advice. Don't go on the pill for a boy who tells you to so that you can have "terrific sex over the summer". Going on the pill will encourage him not to use any other protection and he sounds like he's had a fair bit of sleeping around...and with the attitude that pills are all you need. -_-;;; You really don't want to get weird germs from him... If you want extra protection of pills against pregnancy, go on pills but don't tell him you're on them so that he still uses condoms or something. -_-;;;; The current recommendation now from what I've learned -_- is that unless you're both virgins, you should use condoms for one year and then test for STD's...and that's in a completely monogamous relationship. Please be careful. Strangely enough, I'm actually enjoying this part of clerkship. Wasting much time though. And wasting even more time by finally updating blog layout. |